Jealous.

This word has always had a negative connotation in my mind. Jealousy is sinful, full of selfishness, distrust, resentment. Jealousy is oppressive... Right?

For some reason I have had David Crowder's song, "How He Loves" in my head consistently for the past 2 weeks. The song begins by saying, "He is jealous for me..." What? If jealousy is sinful then the Lord can't be jealous. Not to mention, I don't feel like there is any way the Lord would be jealous for ME. I am broken and seem to constantly break my promises to him.


But the Lord IS jealous for me. He is jealous for my attention, my adoration, my devotion. He hates all the things I put before him. He is absolutely jealous when I serve this world and my worldly desires. However, God's jealousy is beautiful. When I really think about it, I realize how much security I can find in the Lord's jealousy. It makes me feel protected, loved, desired. That's what I need right now; I need to find worth in the Lord's need for me. I think that's what the Lord wants us to feel.

This seems simple and to the point, but it has consumed my thoughts recently. Listen to the song and try to ignore how goofy looking Crowder can look. :)